Caught up in the moment

     You know whats wrong with me? Everything, I as a person, am a giant contradiction. I lie and tell myself that i will be okay and say i will do something about it, but in the end. Nothing ever changes, it seems to be my cycle i suppose. Where does an individual gain motivation, will power, and the strength to do something for themselves? I literally look in the mirror and say “Kristina its time for a change, you will do something for yourself, cause i know your lonely. I know you want to ammount to something anything. Just do it for yourself.” Then the next day comes and that ambition that i had just stays in yesterday.
     And im even more mad at myself for giving up at everything i do. When will i gain my motivation and my strength?

I like being alone.

yofahzy:

I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone.
I like riding the bus alone, and walking home alone.
It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.
I like eating alone, and listening to music alone.
But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with his or her best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away.

I hate having a conscience sometimes, rvut I know its for the better… I really wanna go out tonight ;__;
Damn me for not being able to lie!!